More Than a Number Video is LIVE!!!

Twenty-two years ago God gave me a vision to help those with eating and body image issues. It was birthed during a season when my own eating was so out of control that I sometimes wanted to curl up and die.

As a young girl I had watched my mother struggle with diets, anorexia and bulimia, and there I was, at nineteen, wrestling the same demons.

Some of you know my story, so you know that ten years after the vision was birthed, I resigned from my job at EMI Christian Music Group and founded the non-profit FINDINGbalance. Today we serve thousands of people each month through our video on demand website. I’ve gotten to publish books and curriculum to help other women break free, and I get to speak to thousands more through tours like Girls of Grace, Sex and Skinny, and dates I do with Compassion International.

It sounds big – and the work IS big – but I still run FINDINGbalance nearly by myself. It has truly been a labor of love in the midst of raising three kiddos and trying to operate on a shoestring budget. But on those (many) days when I’ve felt burned out and ready to quit, it’s been the vision that has kept me going. And the creative aspects…

You see, my guilty pleasure is – and has always been – music.

I moved to Nashville about twenty years ago to try and make it as a Christian artist. I thought that would be how God would use me to reach people for this issue. My journey has of course led me down different paths, but God is good and he loves music too and today I am so very proud and humbled to share with you a song I wrote which I hope further fuels my efforts to help women, girls (and guys) escape the dead-end life of disordered eating and dieting, so they can be freer to change our world.

For those of you who think your dreams can’t come true, I’m living proof that it’s never too late. I shot my first music video in KENYA at the age of 41! Anything is possible.

And so, without further ado, here it is. If you like it, share it. Let’s start something really big…


Special thanks go to Jonathan Dimmel and Geoff Hunker from Satellites and Sirens, who directed; Lindsey Labadie, who performed beautifully as the American woman in the video, “Nashipi” – our precious girl in Kenya, and Mike Varel, Ryan O’Quinn and the others on the team with Compassion International who made it possible for me to shoot this as legit as possible. We shot on location at Jackie M.’s place downtown Nashville. Makeup by Paige Omartian. Many generous contributions made this work possible and I am so very grateful to all of you.

10 thoughts on “More Than a Number Video is LIVE!!!

  1. Sometimes I feel like my life is stalking Constance’s! But that might be because her work has changed my life–without me even seeing it coming. Three years ago, I picked up her Finding Balance with Food curriculum to see if it was something I could recommend to others struggling, so I asked a struggling friend if she wanted to go through it with me. She did, and the rest is history.

    Constance asked us to dream what God could have in store for us if we weren’t so consumed with food (or in my case, consumed with fears of failure). Around the same time, I was reading a lot about sex trafficking, and my heart broke for those victims of the heinous rape-for-profit industry. So I came up with a vision of a home, where girls and women who had experienced that kind of trauma could come to be safe and to heal. I envisioned a place where women could come at any hour of the day or night—when memories and nightmares haunt and being in one’s own skin feels dangerous—to receive care.

    I knew I would need a therapy degree to do this, so after fulfilling some other obligations for two years, this past August, I quit my job to pursue a degree in art therapy, which I hope to start this fall after I complete all the undergrad prerequisites. My dream is still on the horizon, and I’m so encouraged by Constance to know that God follows through to help the dreams he gives us become realities–to change his world for good.

  2. WOWZA! Great video! You are one talented woman. Keep fighting the fight and doing great work. I am so glad to know you and to be able to live your message. You. are. amazing!!!! Sending love and thanks for all you do from Minneapolis!

  3. I love this! And you! 🙂 I’ve been so blessed by you and your ministry. God is doing some amazing things through you. I love watching it!

  4. Constance!

    What a beautiful and powerful message! You are a gifted singer, and God has clearly spoken through your music video. I was especially touched by the part near the end of the video where you look directly into the camera and sing, “Girl in a cage you don’t have to rage, there is a God who sees you, lift up your eyes your hope is coming…”.

    I am also deeply touched by the fact that part of the music video was shot in Africa (Kenya). Sadly here in South Africa both exist – eating disorders and poverty/starvation. Even sadder though, it seems to have become a “blind spot”. I hope to be able to share this message as much as possible, as people need to know that there is HOPE and HEALING.

    May this music video be a tool in which COUNTLESS lives are reached and transformed. May His will be done on earth, as it is in heaven!

    Much love,

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